Let go and let god

Story of barren wife. Failed many times in tests and medicines. Hoping against hope. then one day, February 14, she felt something. She Iikes mangoes, sleeping, naglilihi. Then she was saying, this is it. Tis is it. After 5 days, they learned that she was not pregnant. The doctor said that theres nothing they can do. All the tests were done. That was the saddest part in her life. She cannot work right, she cannot sleep well, cannot eat well. Everytime she attends mass, she would go sobbing and tears would just flow from her eyes. 

One night her husband came and saw her lying in bed. And the husband hugged her and said, I'm here I'm here. Then she said to him, love, it's very easy for god right? He can easily make me pregnant. Bakit ayaw pa nya? At that moment, when she was questioning god, she realized she was not actually letting god in control. She was in control. So she said, lord, I give all to you. She surrendered everything to god. After that she felt relieved. Like a heavy burden was taken from her. 

After 5 months, she got pregnant. And after 9 months after her first baby, she got pregnant again for their next child, a boy.

Let go and let god. 

Sometimes there are people like this. Unless I marry this woman, unless I will get married, unless I get rid of my wife, unless I go to states, unless I have a baby, I will never be happy.

You are more important than your dream. 

This should be our prayer, lord even if I will not have a baby, even if I will not get married, even if I will not have a new cellphone or car or house or more money. I will still be happy. Because i believe that my best days are ahead. And you will give me the best for me. 

Your have to surrender to god. Because god have prepared what is best for you. You have to trust him amidst that storm. 

I was sent out from the seminary after my college. I was so devastated when I heard the words, yo have to leave the seminary. All my strength lost, it was so heavy, I felt so lifeless....but it was the time I realized that I was taking control. So I said to god, lord, I trust you. I surrender myself to you.. After a year, I came back and just last year I was ordained a priest. 

When you surrender to god, your pains, weaknesses, illnesses and diseases, financial needs, failures, peace will come into your life. Love will come. Life will come to you.