I miss you

I miss you baby
I miss everything about you
Your smile keeps me loving you.

When I hold your hand
Never been I the same again
The rhythm of my life has changed
And I miss you, miss you everyday day.

Hold me kiss me love me
I will never get scared again
The love oh the love
Is getting sexy, better.

Chorus

And I miss you
Baby I need you
Come home come now
It's getting late and I still miss you.

Every night I hear your voice
And I'm sad no more
And this love this love
It's the reason that I'm here for you.

Don't ask me why I feel the same
For the sun never leaves after the rain
I'm still here I'll wait ill wait.

Ikaw lamang

Nagsimula ang lahat sa kaibigan
Ilang oras na nagsama sa daan
Parang isang kwentong di maintindihan
Ngunit nabuo ng dahan-dahan.

Mga sulyap na di napapansin
Mga ngiti na pilit inililihim
Tibok ng pusoy nagigising
At ngayoy di na tumitigil.

Chorus

Ikaw lamang ang iibigin ko
Ikaw lamang ang pangarap ko
Ikaw lamang, Mamahalin koy
Ikaw lamang.

Aalagaan kita sa lahat ng pagkakataon
Liligawan susuyuin taon-taon
Ibibigay ang lahat sayo
At Paulit-ulit kong sasabihin.

Ikaw lamang ang iibigin ko
Ikaw lamang ang pangarap ko
Ikaw lamang, Mamahalin koy
Ikaw lamang.

Ikaw lamang ang iibigin ko
Ikaw lamang ang pangarap ko
Sa gabi at araw
Ikaw lamang.

Forever you

Forever You

Thou are the bravest of old
Ranting every art of soul
Stood the graves spilled with dreams-broke
Never alone thy heart provoke.

Thou are beauty where future brides
Not even a spark collide in dusk or dark
Flinging stride of smiles embarked
That great abyss never wave any remark.

Resilient and sweet to the deepest
Basking portrait can hardly be painted
Only thou are the purest
even the sun gallops not its embrace.

A tipped charmed lips who can escape
Thou taste can crisp the strongest grip
I ripple like a river flowing in haste
For to rally my feet away I cannot quake.

Thou are heart captured in unique softness
Breeze unfolding into ruined fleets - unending
Heat changing qualms, arrayed silky white gold
Beating cold never gets old.

Turn the strait make every find breathe
That thou so calm my trembling soul
Too weary might I can be
I, thou, the world forever in memory.

Crisis (Shit) Happens

This is a spectacular day, isn’t it? The weather is perfect, people are smiling, the passengers are in good mood, the temperature is light, so what more can you ask? I wake up not so early though, did not take my breakfast, did not say my morning prayer, I took a bath before washing teeth, did not say good morning to some friends but still I am fine.

I have some plans for today and for the coming days in mind and not one of them is realized yet because I have so many unnecessary concerns that I prioritized like writing anything without any idea at all. Oh my grammar and English are becoming worse as expected as if I have never gone to any English class at all because of passion, I say. Passion is the only element I have now in writing this not grammar or lessons learned in school, just relying on my experience that are stuck in my brain for centuries old and now I’m putting them together in one piece. This is shit! How can I even do that that even the grade schools can never understand or read? Well, I don’t care what they will say or whether they will understand or not as long as I know that this will help me to release my emotions that are very sensitive today. Just let me speak maybe and let me express what is disturbing my life.

So I am writing today for no reason at all. I just want to write what is happening inside me right now at this very moment.

I am so disturbed of what happened to me the past days regarding my relationship. I am so distracted in my work that I can’t really concentrate in one thing I’m doing and sadly people easily recognize that which also adds to my distraction. Can they just focus on their work and family or business not so much putting concern on my life? Can they just listen and forget or feel and sleep the words and impressions that are disturbing them? If I can just please them maybe they will but I cannot presume that because that might clarify some uncertainties in their minds.

Anyway, I am still trying to figure out how to fix my life again and to put back the peace that I have lost, that sense of joy and pure energy and excitement without any personal interest or grudge to other people whether they are good or bad against me, that peace that puts me smiling everywhere I go and anything I do, that peace that only me who knows that time. That is what I wanted to feel again because today I am so really different, the old self was lost and I cannot grasp the idea of being happy. I know that a couple of days ago I was so high in love and now it seems like that love is gone and wasted. Yes, everything that happened seems worthless and no amount of price to be remembered. I am really sad and disappointed because I really thought things will just work perfectly and happily but now again somebody let go, I was busted and forgotten. Whether that is love or care, I don’t like to believe it anymore because it pains me ever more every time I remember that things now are back to normal -  no love, no motivation, no inspiration, nothing.

God, I’m sorry if I feel this way but I know you understand me right now. You now that I love you and you know that deep in my heart that you’re the most important in my life. But you also know that this feeling is my choice that I desired to feel. You know that even if this hurts me I still tried to try it because for me it makes me more of myself, significant, important, special, and loved.

So honestly it affected me intensely, when the person I love left me. If that is what is best for both of us then let it be. I will again accept it. I will accept all this pain. I just hope that she will still feel safe and loved. Actually this was my prayer before that she will find someone who will love her unconditionally where her heart will also find the same. Lord, is this the answer to my prayer? This sure surprised me and hurts me though your will be done, Lord! I know everything happens not without your consent so you know everything, every detail in us, you know them all, Lord. Just help both of us to work this pain out so that we can move on and make a life again.

Destiny Happens

Sometimes THINGS happen almost repeatedly, one mistake today and tomorrow the same mistake you fall. And unbelievably they happen so fast but you can track them anytime. Seriously! This is really sick! I always make the same mistake knowing that they are going the same route and end in the same feeling.

My heart once advised that the next time it happen it would be a different game, a different feeling of excitement but sadly I was wrong. I still missed the last spark to make the feeling into reality, making the ending open like a movie always creating another sequel to finally seize the whole picture and story. But, maybe there are things that just won’t work out for some people. Instead there are other things that are just meant for them. Well, I heard this from people, and they call it destiny. Crap! If this is what destiny for me, then holy crap! I just can’t figure out how to move next time. Why can’t I just make the perfect move now? I’m not comparing but some people can just perfectly find their destiny. They are already there - family, relationship, career, faith, promotion, dream house, wife or husband, etc. This is destiny, maybe. Will I just wait for the ones coming or have they arrived already that I am just blind and stupid? 

I tried to get close to this girl, known her for just a few times, met her smile and her care, her crazy stares a couple of times. It was quite perfect then. It seems like everything was crazily perfect those days. She was introduced by a friend and unlike some “first time meets” mine was just nothing. I never talked to her, never introduced really myself nor asked her anything. I just saw her in a second and that’s it she was gone. My first impression was quite fine. She looks pretty, simple but not so friendly. She never talked much to new people I guess so she was so behave and silent. Until after few weeks we met again unexpectedly in a very ordinary day. Somebody called me and fortunately it was her phone that this friend of mine used. So I was able to talk to her about her father who was then at the hospital for some medication because of leukemia. It was there when this relationship started to grow. I visited her in the hospital taking much time and effort to see her and help and console her in my own ways. So for a month we would see each other and eat lunch outside together, talk about anything, about our common friends. At the back of my mind I knew something is wrong and yet I hesitated to think deep about that. All I know someone is happy and I am happy as well. This is what they call making good memories together though I’m not so proud to say that this is really a good way of making memories for I know I have commitments. Sometimes when we go out I still feel ashamed and fearful because some people might see us and what will they say about us, about her and about me? They will surely think negatively against us even if we are just dating as friends. And that is a real issue for them when they see a committed person going out with another person. Shit! I can’t control that. But I still insisted in doing it. We dated a couple of times and enjoyed each other’s company.

The passing of days were full of passion and excitement. I began to work to be better of what I am. I cleaned my room. Gush! That was unbelievable because I don’t usually clean my room. I like it messy and unorganized though it also makes my mind dizzy. I wasted many hours in texting and calling. I even paid my bills bigger this time. Biggest so far because of this crazy life I’m working on...love, flirt, I don’t know. But I know it makes me happy and alive.

I don’t know but she also feels the same towards me, I guess. I never asked her about how she feels about me so I’m not that so sure. But as a person, I know something is also magical happening inside her. I just can’t ask her because it’s too early for that, I always tell my unreasonable mind. But there she is, she would smile back at me, call me her baby and send her affection. And that changed my life once again. I began to believe again that there are always second chances for those who believe and wait.

You know I’ve waited for so long already like more than a year just to move on and learn to let go a person I loved. This is embarrassing! I can’t easily move and forget the ones I love so much. It would really make me fall into tears especially when I am in bed. I have this selective memory where i can remember those silly words and gestures that made me happy. But those are also the memories that kill me every time they visit me. I had those worthless and energy less days. I cannot even think and focus on what I am supposed to do. I forgot to take care of myself. I just wanted to do anything just to cover the pains and the hurts every day. Even how strong I am still I cannot fight fairly the feelings that seem like cursing me and overshadowing the best opinions and character that I have. To fight the sickening emotion and tiredness I tried to keep myself busy with other things, things that can possibly fill my mind with stuff but not my heart. Yes, the heart still beats the same sound every day which really pains me with a taste of joy. I wanted to let go because the past is already not helping me to keep it but at the back of my mind I still want to remember it and smell its roses so red. This is crazy, right? I wanted to find peace but I can’t do it perfectly because peace is something that hurts, to find peace is always coupled with touching the pain as well just like the pain of letting go but keeping some of it because even a little of the memory is already peace.

It’s more than a year now and the feeling starts to subside and as it began to subside another person came. And it turns out that what happened a year ago is becoming real again today. The relationship I wanted to build, the feeling I wanted to feel and the memories I wanted to make are becoming too close. I don’t know the depth of this ending but seems its getting painful again and my fears are again resurging just like before. And just like before, I am not sure how to handle this issue again. Will I give in or give up? Will I just ignore the feeling and the good days we had or will I continue to show her affection and love? Yes, I know that from the very beginning, this was already wrong. I admit that it was really a bad decision to keep believing that there is future for both of us. Sometimes I thought to myself that there is always a possibility but I know it would be very difficult. In fact, even my imagination can hardly conceptualize the future for both of us. I just kept on thinking at least just a little maybe. But that is still wrong. I knew she also thought about that futureless relationship and she just gave in to that because it also made her feel safe and happy. But in the end, she also fainted and disappeared. I wanted before to tell her that no matter what will happen she should not give up and still I never mentioned that to her. Well maybe because I know she also cannot do it as I cannot do it as well. Now days are becoming pale and voiceless, no excitement, and just plain activities here and there just to keep the gap of my heart. But I know nothing is happening now inside and out. I don’t know what’s happening to her but I know what’s happening to me. This is life I guess and this is what they call destiny. All I have to do now I guess is to forgive the people in my life who have failed me in my expectations and forgive myself for the mistakes I have done again and again. This is my fault; this is my choice; this is my destiny. I just hope that things will go well again for me and for them. As usual, things change after some time, after some sleep, after some tears, after some smiles, after things that are destined to come and happen, only then things and my life will finally be perfect once again.

Keynote address

Fr. Roger Caalim, OMI our Parish priest, Fr. Boyet Cabrera, OMI our school director, Sr. Mary Paul Diorico, OND, our dean of studies, school administrators, teachers and staff, parents, friends, graduates, ladies and gentlemen, good morning.

It is simply fitting to first of all to thank God for this wonderful event in your life as students who are now graduates. Likewise, this is a good opportunity to thank the parents and families of our beloved graduates who are here with us today for all the love and sacrifices they have lavished on our graduates. You are now beginning to harvest the fruits of your labor.

We'll, I'm very honored to be your speaker today for the commencement of your graduation.

For a couple of a days, (in fact, 2 days lang) I had a hard time twisting the possible reasons why I was chosen to be the speaker today. I thought there are many individuals whom we can think of as pilling in success in their lives. But Why me? We'll All I can think of is that I am a priest, young and vibrant, at ang pinakamadaling utusan ni Fr. Boyet na magsalita ngayon dito. Joke lang Fr. Boyet.

In any case, let me share to you some principles that could possibly help you understand a bit about the meaning of life and success in relation to this 53rd commencement exercises.

My family lives in the province of Cotabato. We were 6 siblings. My sister who was born next to me died when she was 2. We were quite a number and The meager income of my family somehow were just quite enough to send us through college. Fortunately, we have generous relatives who in a way helped us from time to time in our education.

Like some of you here, I know you also felt that life at times is tough, right? And sometimes, you can just feel that it's so unfair. But sometimes, you really just have to face some truths in life - that life is tough and if you want to succeed, you have to work harder, everyday.

But It doesn't mean that when you are having some tough and rough times in life that you can do nothing. In fact, most people who were successful in life have been to all these. Michael Jordan had to miss hundreds of shots that made him the best. Lucio Tan had to buy and sell empty used bottles that made his good in business. Manny Pacquiao had to go to the market everyday that made him the strongest and fastest boxer. Vice Ganda had to spend nights in comedy bars that made him the most admired tv personality today. Bb. Pilipinas Ms. universe 2014 MJ Lastimosa had to lose 2 times in the same pageant that she finally got the crown. All these stories and many others' tell us one thing, that we should never give up in life. The tougher life gets, the better the winning and success. Success is not what or who you are today but who you become everyday. Now, That's one.

Then the second is this: Your life is your own story. People might tell you what to do but it is your choice to make them real.

People used to tell me I'm not gonna finish my seminary formation. People would tell me I'm not gonna be a priest. So When i was in the seminary, little by little, I began to believe that they were right. Right in front of my very eyes, I did things according to their expectations. I failed to follow the seminary rules. I never listened to my parents to be a good seminarian. And later i just reaIized that I was sent out from the seminary for being immature and hard-headed. So I was out in the seminary for a year working in Davao, Bukidnon and Kidapawan. Then I asked myself, what am I doing with my life? I thought to myself that I cannot just let other people write my own story. I have to write my own story because this is my life. Yes, this is my life. So I went back on my feet, went back in the seminary and I told myself, i have to be back because this is what I want. Then after 7 years I was ordained a priest.

You may fail a lot of times in life. Whether you like it or not, at some point in your life, you will surely fail. We all do fail. But when you fail and stumble, stand up, and go back to your senses. Focus on your dreams not on your failures. For it is not what the world gives you that will determine your success or failure but how you respond to what is happening in your life.

You are graduates now, but it doesn't mean that the fight is over. You still have to work harder. Land a job. Help your family. Be the best person you can be.

Read, learn, listen, pray, love, make good decisions and never stop dreaming.

Graduates, the whole world Is bigger than what you think. It is so big that it can give you everything you need only when you want it. It is so big that it can conspire itself to help you achieve your own success.

You were taught different skills by your teachers and in this school. Use them for success. Use them to change your life. Use them to change the world and let us help one another to make it better.

And finally, Never forget that in your journey you have your family and friends who are so proud of you and they love you and will always love you no matter what. And you have a God who loves you too.

Let me end my speech by quoting to you the words of St. Teresa de Avila:

She says, "Let nothing disturb you.
       Let nothing ever frighten you.
       Everything is changing.
       Only God is unchanging.
       Patience wins everything.
       If you have God, you lack nothing.
       Only God is enough."

To all of you, may God remain with you forever to bless you. Once again, congratulations!

God gives in abundance

When God gives, He gives in abundance!

God loves us. You know that! God wants us to be full, complete. That is why He offers his life everyday for us. When god gives he gives in abundance. He gives himself as a free gift, a ransom for our sins. He is our payment for our debts. He is the source and summit of all Christian life.

When god gives he gives in abundance. And what does god give us? Everything we need. But most of all his love, symbolized by the body and blood of him.

Every human person is hungry for something. Others are hungry for food. They eat every minute. Some are hungry for affection, others for attention, others for fulfillment, for peace, abundance, health, love, forgiveness.

according to psychologists, The greatest hunger of man is love. That is why we want to dream, achieve, be praised, help, serve, to find love in our life. For love is what life means.

And this is what god offers each one of us in the Eucharist. He offers his life, his love. Jesus said, take this..take this..god offers us what we want, god offers us everything that we need in the Eucharist. Then why are we turning away from god, from the Eucharist? Maybe because we are too used to it, maybe because we don't see any change in our life. Maybe because we don't see any inspiration? Whatever our intention or disposition maybe, god still wants us to come and receive him. Others may not be so faithful to it but god has all the reserves left and ready for us when we come to him. Its just a matter of time, its just a matter of understanding, its just a matter of grace.

Why does god feeds us everyday? Because he wants us to be strong, equipped, ready for whatever trials, difficulties of life. He wants us to be more and more like him, humble before the father, obedient to the father.

And so this feast today calls for a celebration and thanksgiving for god has made available for us everyday. When we consume the body of Christ we know god becomes powerful for us. Yes, we may be weak even after receiving, we may again go back to our old ways, our old sins and mistakes, yet do not worry, the Eucharist, jesus Christ will be there to help us go through life. He will help us right our wrongs, he will strengthen us when we feel everything seems misfortunes, he will be there to comfort us and make us whole and at home at last.

Happy feast day of the HOLY BODY AND BLOOD OF CHRIST,!!!